As usual, I was upto nothing great and browsing through my fb stream when I saw a pic of a girl with a guy and another guy liking it. It so happened that the later guy had a thing for this girl but it never really grew into anything serious. With my hand raised in solemn stance, I can say that I remember the girl spurned his advances and his every attempt to grow chummy.
Now, I saw this pic and saw loads of people had liked it. I clicked on the likes and scrolled through the list and saw this guy. The first thing that came instinctively to my head was चुतीया साला, कुछ और तो कर भी नहीं सकता...A moment later I realized I did the same (liked a pic) a few days back and how conveniently I was calling this guy a चुतीया. I realized, with great deal of frustration, despair and stupidity that the joke was on me. One thing that rung clear, like a knock on the door with a stick of wood, is that things seem much more clear when looking at someone else.
A few ______ (months/weeks/days/hours/minutes) ago, I had trouble trying to forget this girl and it was becoming a little bit of a big deal. I wasn't ready to accept the thought that maybe she's not interested in me. If I had seen someone else doing it, I would have talked to him and told him to use his head for once and not let his emotions become the acting pilot. However, while it was happening to me, I kept myself in a state of denial, told myself that my situation was quite different and that every scenario was different and mine begged for emotions to run amok.
I'm a big fan of forums and reddit was just a blessing for the geek in me who wanted to read about everything in the world while sitting in front of his desk.
Ok, geek might have been a bad word, but it sort of gives you the drift right... so let's move on.
I was reading through a pile of comments (mostly garbage) when I came across this guy's comment which said that it's useless trying to run behind a girl, trying to woo her, when you know she has rejected you in her heart. I upvoted that comment , told myself that truer words had never been spoken and then a few days later, I was desperately chasing a girl, hoping that she might change her stance, fall in my arms and let me do things to her. But it was not to happen. What was written in stone and was executed with the same rigidity was I torturing myself and wondering what was going wrong. My failure was not able to think clear headed...?
The only saving grace (would I call it that?) is that there's a first time for everything and maybe this was the first time for me... While I wouldn't go as far as conferring on myself the ultimate medal of hopeless romantic and roam some river side like Adele, I'll leave you guys with the video. ciao.
Now, I saw this pic and saw loads of people had liked it. I clicked on the likes and scrolled through the list and saw this guy. The first thing that came instinctively to my head was चुतीया साला, कुछ और तो कर भी नहीं सकता...A moment later I realized I did the same (liked a pic) a few days back and how conveniently I was calling this guy a चुतीया. I realized, with great deal of frustration, despair and stupidity that the joke was on me. One thing that rung clear, like a knock on the door with a stick of wood, is that things seem much more clear when looking at someone else.
A few ______ (months/weeks/days/hours/minutes) ago, I had trouble trying to forget this girl and it was becoming a little bit of a big deal. I wasn't ready to accept the thought that maybe she's not interested in me. If I had seen someone else doing it, I would have talked to him and told him to use his head for once and not let his emotions become the acting pilot. However, while it was happening to me, I kept myself in a state of denial, told myself that my situation was quite different and that every scenario was different and mine begged for emotions to run amok.
I'm a big fan of forums and reddit was just a blessing for the geek in me who wanted to read about everything in the world while sitting in front of his desk.
Ok, geek might have been a bad word, but it sort of gives you the drift right... so let's move on.
I was reading through a pile of comments (mostly garbage) when I came across this guy's comment which said that it's useless trying to run behind a girl, trying to woo her, when you know she has rejected you in her heart. I upvoted that comment , told myself that truer words had never been spoken and then a few days later, I was desperately chasing a girl, hoping that she might change her stance, fall in my arms and let me do things to her. But it was not to happen. What was written in stone and was executed with the same rigidity was I torturing myself and wondering what was going wrong. My failure was not able to think clear headed...?
The only saving grace (would I call it that?) is that there's a first time for everything and maybe this was the first time for me... While I wouldn't go as far as conferring on myself the ultimate medal of hopeless romantic and roam some river side like Adele, I'll leave you guys with the video. ciao.
We all lose our senses when it comes to infatuation... :( Nice blogpost. Could totally relate to it. :)
ReplyDeleteThanks for writing it. :)