I thought it was only me but there are others who are thinking on the same lines too. One of my most favourite bloggers has decided to stop writing. I sort of used to see a bit of myself in what she wrote. I never wrote anything about a lot of things that I would generally love to sit and chit-chat about, because it was already there on her blog. But today it isn't and something is amiss.
When I first started this blog, the one thing I wanted to do was to constantly ask myself how deep the rabbit hole goes? How long can I keep writing about the stuff that I write about ? Sadly I've lost most of those sentiments. Maybe because there is a different question I'm asking myself. Maybe something else. Maybe because, like her, I too am a bit selfish when it comes to me. Like Sharukh Khan puts it, it's always about me, my stardom, my family, my wife, my world, etc, etc...
In these 2 + something years as a blogger, I've written about a lot of stuff. Stuff which might not even make sense now. Ok, agreed everything has it's own place, serious contemplations, moments to laugh at, poetic reflections, etc, etc... but then change is inevitable. Change comes back to haunt us because it's the only permanent thing in life. I'm an optimist, not as big an optimist as Andy in Shawshank Redmption, but an optimist nevertheless. I see this as a sign that a phase has just passed. Maybe it's time to move on. Not necesarilly to greener pastures but also to some drylands with only forage bushes around.
Today as I stand on a crossroad, I don't know if it's a goodbye or just a hibernation, but whatever it is, i'll come to know about it in due time. Till then I'll just pretend this space was never mine...
till then adios!
sashidhar
so that means you are waving good-bye?
ReplyDeleteanyways, I like your language man, it's never dull, it's full of 'sashidharish' expression :)
Well, go if you must, is what I'd say. And fare thee well :)
ReplyDeleteWhy did we start, and continued with, blogging after all? All along, at least for me, beneath the hits and comments and behind the well-written, satisfying posts there had been a quest to know myself better. I evaluated my thinking level directly or indirectly through the posts I wrote and through the comments I wrote and received. And then I honestly told people what I was through some of the posts. So that they understand me better. And well, it has been an exercise well undertaken. Besides having some fun and a marked improvement in my writing, I have surprised quite a few people, including myself. My understanding of myself is now better that what it would have been minus this blog. Same can be said about others’ understanding of me.
If your understanding of yourself tells you that it was time you abandon the blog, well, then you’ll be doing an injustice to the blog, and more importantly, to yourself, by sticking to it. So forget about it if that’s what suits you best. We’ll miss the unique, irreplaceable Sashidhar, one which Gopal has talked about, on the blogosphere. But then as you said, change is the only thing permanent in life.
Just one suggestion. Blogging might eventually become an effort, digging a rabbit hole as you said. But the same cannot be said about thinking. Thinking is more like a river, whose natural course is to flow and to stop which an effort, and a destructive one at that. You might stop digging the rabbit hole, but make sure that the river always flows better than ever. Cheers!